Two toned Silkscreen print. Limited edition of 100 on archival paper. 10"x14," Signed and numbered.
"I'M SORRY, I LOVED YOU" was a vision that I had following an ayauasca ceremony. I had just lost a couple of relationship- a fallout with a mentor that I really respected and also someone that I deeply loved. I realized that I was getting caught up in the minutia of winning arguments, or assuming things, reacting too quickly - I obviously was having communication breakdown- how could people that I love and care about so deeply not understand that I care and love for them, so much so that they would cut me out of their lives? My communication was not working.
Life is short, so if all that matters when we pass is our relationships and the love we shared. How could I change my behaviors to show people how I really feel?
I pierced my tongue- trying to block the energy of speaking too much, focusing on meditating on things that were bothering me instead of immediately acting on them and speaking. I wanted my energy to channel through my hands, through my art, through my super power, and not be wasted in lashing out in speech and wasting energy. I realized that anything I uttered from my lips would echo forever in eternity- and I had to be very careful what words I let go from my mouth. There were many realizations that came along with this- but most importantly, my desire to more fully communicate my love and care for others, and work on making that a priority in my life. So this is a mantra of sorts.
Normally neon signs are advertising something- so I like that it echos into space “I’m sorry.” My apology is emanating into the ether.
I have been embracing the idea of no fear- I have been trying to move into glass and sculpture and different mediums and this piece pinpoints that transition and integration of these new things.